the day the world stood still

so about a week ago, i was feeding my new woolie obsession and found a new yarn store to check out. [twistoffate.com, check it out!] i had been procrastinating on it alllllllllll day, but had a feeling that there was a reason for it. ohhhh little did i know. i packed up Boog and put her in the car. again. and we chugged our way up into a residential area in our city. and got really lost. when it was super easy to find. nonetheless we found it, and i was unsnapping the Boog from what she would describe as an instrument of infant torture, when i heard a car start a few houses up. looking up, i see a car that strongly resembles my mom's, and thought, that's funny... as the car came closer, my heart sank. it was mom. and she had absolutely no reason to be there, we don't know anyone in the area at all, but it was more the feeling, like i was busting her for something. she asked me what i was doing, clearly shocked and a little flushed, and i told her about the yarn. i asked her what she was doing,
and she lied to me
and i knew it.
instantly.
she said something about scrapbooking and creative memories and blah blah blah.
my radar kicked in and the BS detector went off. but i chose to trust that she was doing it for a reason, we're best friends and i know she loves us kids more than life.
but she lied...
but i swallowed it and had a slightly awkward afternoon.
i called my husband as soon as i could, and he told me to just not drop to conclusions. which was entirely toooooo late.
so a week or so passes.
my parents have since dropped off the map, no calls, no nothing, leaving me alone and wondering what the heck is going on. but just choosing to trust that its all going to be ok, i continue enjoying my rapidly dwindling maternity leave.
until the parentals SUDDENLY decide to renew their vows. this coming weekend. the weekend of the annual family reunion for my hub's family. which i'm already bailing on one of the days to do a beauticontrol thing [insert angry mother in law here]. mom INSISTS i be there, i have no choice, and "you just have to trust me. you have to be there. it's crucial"
and to that, i'm starting to just NOT CARE. my heart is a little more than jaded at this point, from YEARS of being in the middle of their disastrous marriage, and i'm just not wanting to have to have my mother in law livid at me. again. [p.s; i have NO INTENTION of going, not after tonight]
so i decide to call out my mom on this, and how i know everyone is hiding things and that i'm just not doing it, and she again says that i have to just trust her.
and i can't anymore.
so i ask her if he cheated.
and she can't answer me.
later, she told me she was having him followed, and that yeah, it was someone from my city, and not WAS cheating. but IS. but that was a seriously brief conversation, snatched from when he was out of the room.

then
MANY hours later, she tells me that, in fact, she has just started to have him followed and doesn't know who it is yet. so she has no PROOF, and i'm just getting angrier with every word that proceeds from her mouth. WHY THE LIES is what i want to know! WHY put me through this emotional rollercoaster?? #$%^&*#@#!@$% I understand that when someone cheats, the spouse just knows, and she did lay out a very compelling timeline of inconsistencies, but for the LOVE OF BOB.

my daughter heart can't take this anymore. its shattered into a million pieces.

and she tells me to keep it on the DL, act normal.
IS THAT POSSIBLE????????????
i can't do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and all i want to do is find this woman, and break her face. sorry. not the Christian answer. but i'm angry and that's where it stands.

for now, i'm just gonna cuddle Boog and pray for sleep.